You're Leaving..

One of my most important goals for the year of 2007, would be to spend as much time with my best friend as much as possible. He is a person who is truly one-of-a-kind. He is like no other best friend that I have ever had. He has been there for me through thick and thin, even if we do act as if we hate each other all of the time. We have that type of relationship where we can tell each other everything because although we are of opposite genders, we still understand one another. I help him with his problems concerning females and he helps me with so much more. Even when I am feeling at my lowest, he still gives me the brutally honest truth, which I look for most in a person. He cares for me and I care for him. We may hate each other most of the time, but it is all out of love.

This January, he is leaving for Berkeley. He is an extremely and incredibly smart and talented person. He is not only smart academically, but also emotionally and street-wise. He may not be the best person to seek advice fm when it comes to fighting someone or talking trash on them but he is an expert in giving advice about life and its multiple levels of difficulty. Although he appears to be clueless most of the time, he is still the smartest kid I know. He has never given up on any of his dreams or his friends. Family and God are his number one priorities above all else. No matter the distance, he will always find time to insert someone into his life and at least make some sort of impact on him or her. As for me, I have gotten over my feelings for him so that our feelings of strictly friendship may develop. He is one of the very few people I run to whenever I am faced with a problem concerning school, love, or family. Through thick and thin, he has been there for me. I hope he will continue to remain there.

One of my concerns as he goes up to Berkeley is that he may have the possibility of forgetting the roots of where he came from and the people who have impacted his life. Before he came into my life, my life was a living hell. My best friend had taught me to control most of my anger and taught me to store it away into a place as to where I can forget about it and move on in my future without having to worry about the past. He’s taught me to learn to move on when things aren’t going my way, but rather the way others have molded the process in order for me to follow. I remember when I was completely upset one day and all I wanted was for someone who could help me to vent my anger and problems. I remember going to the park with him and Vy and playing badminton to release some of the anger. He taught me the true values of friendship and what a true friend is supposed to be. Throughout my life, I have been constantly back-stabbed by the people who I thought of as my best friends, but with Thomas, this is much more different.

Thomas is one of those types of people with a hint of sweetness and caring natures locked up inside them just waiting to barge out of that hidden closet. A time that reminds me of him caring for me would be our occasional heart-to-heart talks. We have had many of those in the weirdest places. One of the weirdest would be while sitting in the trees at our church. Another would be sleepless nights online and the day we drove up to El Monte just to visit some friends. We have had multiple heart-to-heart talks that have taken place in cars. Those are probably the most meaningful ones because we can talk about anything without worrying about someone eavesdropping on our secrets shared with one another.

Although Thomas and I fight most of the time about insignificant little things, people surrounding us can still be able to tell that we have some type of relationship. My relationship with Thomas has never been this intimate with compared to anyone else. We strive to be different in the crowd and making ourselves a unique set of people. Each accomplishment in our lives is worthy of being proud of because we both know that we have done it together in one way or another. Without one another, the other would probably go insane.

Before Thomas leaves to Berkeley, it has become my goal to present him with some type of present before he leaves. He is one of the few people that I will miss greatly when he leaves. Eventually, everyone will leave, but to go to a college that isn’t even close to the home city is most definitely worth missing and crying over. This will not be the first or last time that I have cried for my dear best friend, either. Once he leaves, my only means of a connection, entertainment, and advice-seeking would be through the internet and the phone. There will no longer be random days where we go to the mall or when we go and watch a movie every week after church. They days I will miss most would be those days where he would come over and play DOTA with Tan and the day we watched music videos online with Vu and Trina. I will most definitely miss him going to the few volleyball games that I invited him to, even if he did fall asleep in the bleachers during the first one. I‘ll miss the day he came with Vy, Ricky, and Aubrey and took us joyriding to Modjeska Park without a licensed driver; not to mention the reckless driving in the parking lot, but it was a great day.

No matter what happens in life, I will never forget this young man because he is a person who matter to me a lot. In the short time I have had the pleasure of knowing him, he has become not only my best friend, but also my guardian angel. It is as if God himself sent Thomas directly to me to teach me valuable lessons in my life. Each lesson from Thomas is like another lesson that I can just apply into my daily lifestyle. He has taught me to do and be so much that once he is gone again, I will probably go slightly insane once more.

I vow to you, Thomas Cuong Hoang Le, that I will never forget you no matter what happens in our lives. I promise that if we are not as close in the future as we are now, that I will still attend all of your major events in your life. I will attend your college graduation, whatever it takes, and I will make it to your wedding as well. Our lives may change in the upcoming year but with the type of impact you have made on me and my life, it would be very difficult to forget a person like you, especially the way you walk with your little duck feet and your squeaky, yet monotone voice. I will miss you Thomas, more than you can even imagine. I love you my dearest best friend and I pray that we will always be close friends with whatever we end up with in life.

Dianna Do Hoang Nguyen.
November 8, 2007.

edit: december 15, 2007.

Although there have been times where I have hidden things from you, you've still found it in your heart to forgive me; just as I've been able to forgive you. So why, for the mistake of lying to you about a text message, do you become hurt and distraught? I only wish that you can find it in your heart to forgive me once more. I'm sorry..