I feel..

..empty. I just don't know what to do anymore. Like, I'm beginning to become so angry at the world when the problem is actually me. I know I'm being pathetic, but I'm not looking for attention. I'm just looking for some place to spill my feelings. I don't care if people read this or say anything to me about it. Go ahead and criticize me. I don't really care anymore. I know I've said this before, but it never truly went into effect. This time, everything is going to change. I refuse to be someone's play thing. I refuse to become a project or someone to be messed with, trampled on whenever the hell the time comes. I'm not just another piece of meat out there. I'm a human being dammit.

I've been nothing but a great friend to many. Yet, that seems to be taken for granted. Well now, that is no more. I refuse to be friends anymore. You're not worth it and your friendship isn't worth it. I've stood by you every step of the way for these past three years, and you've done nothing but ridicule me, criticize me, and make a joke out of me. I refuse to take any of your bull shit any longer. You were never a real friend to me, and I was nothing but a project to you. I never meant anything to you. You can say all you want and pretend that you were the best thing that happened to me, but I'm honestly glad that you're not here anymore. You've just created unnecessary thoughts in my head that I shouldn't have been thinking about in the first place. One thing I've learned from my experience with you though: never let one person get too close to you, but he/she will only screw you over in the end.

People can say I'm being dramatic, but you know what? What person isn't? People are always going to talk shit about someone else. I'm not going to say that I don't do it from time to time because I do. I'm not surprised to hear rumors spread about me either. People can say all they want about me. I don't plan on changing who I am anymore. I shouldn't have to change for someone. My REAL friends will still be by my side.